Jacqueline...
I have to tell you something, but you have to promise not to be pissed
off at me, okay?  That sounds strangely familiar :)  Here it goes. I 
told Dr. Parker about us...like EVERYTHING.  He's not going to tell my 
dad so don't worry, okay?  He was just really insistent that I tell my
dad about you so finally I just explained everything.  I started from 
the beginning and told him about "Jake" and all the feelings I had at
the time.  He'd heard my parents talk about you as Jake a little so he
thought I was talking about you just as some guy friend of mine.  I'm
sure he was thinking that the story would end up somehow with me saying,
"I'm gay."  Needless to say, he was pretty surprised when I told him about
the cotilion and that Jake was actually a girl...named Jacqueline.  
Suddenly, he understood everything a lot better.  We had a longer session
than usual and I was really glad I'd driven myself because I was feeling
very deconstructed when I left.  It was actually supposed to be my last 
session because my parents have their last session next week, but Dr. Parker 
said he would like to see me a few more times. I guess he thinks I'm pretty
messed up.  He asked me if I'd considered the possibility that I am gay.
Like THAT is the reason that I didn't catch on to the whole "Jake's really
a girl" thing...because I didn't want it to be true.  And I didn't know how
to feel about that because that's the one and only part of our relationship
I've ever wanted to change.  How I found out, you know?  Or, that I didn't
figure it out.  I really hate that and he had to point it out as evidence
for the "Hamilton is actually gay" argument.  Great.  Still, I think that
you are living proof of the "Hamilton is a straight boy masquerading as
a gay with a guy who's really a girl" argument :)  I'm not gay, by the
way.  Did I emphasize that enough yet?  I think Dr. Parker gets it though
because, for quite a while, he has been hearing me talk about my wonderful
girlfriend who I am so amazingly in love with.  And, on that note...

I love you...
Hamilton