Dear Hamilton,
It's funny that you didn't mention even going to Dr. Parker
when I talked to you last night and I told you I hadn't 
checked my email in awhile.  I guess it's not really the
easiest thing to talk about, though.  I'm sorry you felt
so deconstructed when you left.  I know you said to never
feel bad about anything, but...I really feel bad about 
that situation and especially how you found out.  My one
thing that I want to change is that I'd pulled you into
my room the first time I saw you and told you everything.
I don't know if that would have made things weirder, but
it certainly would have made everything less confusing
especially for you.  I mean, here we are like a year
later and we're still talking about it.  It's still
bothering you.  It's keeping you in therapy :)  I know
you'll say you can handle it and I know you can, but
I am really really really sorry that I caused this.
I know you're not gay, by the way.  Did I emphasize
that enough yet? ;)  Well, I don't know what else
to say other than I love you and miss you as usual.

Love <3
Jake